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I've made the most obvious first step in my fitness Journey. I started a blog about it. Because that's what everyone would do right? Similar to updating Facebook every time I got o the gym! Ha! It seems counterproductive, doesn't it?  I'm supposed to be out there getting into shape, not sitting in front of a computer! But in truth, my official journey does not start until Monday. (July 16th, 2012.)  So this is just another blog to most, but to me, this is my accountability, as well as that weekly (or daily, if I choose) reminder of my progress when I feel like I'm not making any. When I feel like giving up.

I don't expect to have any followers of this blog, but if I happen to inspire others with it, great! This is mostly for myself, as well as a means to share my progress with my Big Spoon (my husband) who is halfway around the world right now.  I have a goal of becoming a better woman for him, physically and emotionally.  This time that he is gone has and will continue to serve as a forge. I'm walking through the fire, and being tempered along the way. I will be 29 this year, and this year is meant to change me at my core, force me to finally grow up and be that woman in her 30s who is WAY better than she ever was in her teens and 20s.

The reason this is a bit mundane though, is I don't really have a great deal of weight to lose. Just 40 lbs. That's it.  That's my goal. Or if I don't lose 40 lbs, (because muscle weighs more than fat) I want to lose 8 dress sizes.  I know that there are so many others out there with more dramatic weight loss stories to tell. I know a few personally. Two people in my life who have lost more than 100 pounds. Me?  I'm just a mom who has a little bit of weight leftover from having children. I'm that woman who had the desk job for 11 years and the weight snuck up. I never had an eating problem, and I was never 'the fat kid'.  I could eat anything I wanted and not gain a pound until about the age of 19 or so.

Even now, I haven't watched my diet at all, and I haven't risen above 175. But I haven't lost much either. (5 pounds here or there, and it always comes back). But what I haven't had in my life in more than 10 years is exercise. More than the weight, I am morbidly out of shape. I can't walk up a small hill without becoming winded. Just getting up and playing with my kids makes me feel fatigued. Often times I send the Little Bug (my two year old daughter) away because I don't feel like jumping up, and dancing, or swinging her around. I just feel blah.  I know this needs to change.


Some might ask, well, why isn't that your exercise? Just get up and play. But I also need that 'me' time. If you're a mom you know that toddlers are also mentally exhausting. I feel like just getting out by myself and working out my stress while focusing soley on exercise and strengthening my body, will give me the jump start I need to have that energy later on.  I joined a gym last week, and my first visit happens Monday.  In the next couple of days I will post my before photos, measurements and goals. I will blog about my diet as well and my challenges. 


So there you have it. I'm a mom, trying to change. I type this as Little Bug sits in my lap, punching her little fists into my belly fat because it's jiggly and fun.  Yep. I need to do this. 


Over and out.